One of Those Days

 Have you ever said to someone (or even yourself): "It's been one of those days!" I think we all have and really it could mean lots of different things to different people. Often it is because it was a doozy, or crazy busy, or everything went wrong, or you couldn't seem to catch your breath. The other day I had "one of those days. It seemed like every time I turned around, or tried to sit down at my desk, something happened. It wasn't all bad, don't get me wrong, but it was non-stop. At times I had multiple students and staff that needed me for whatever reason and by the end of the day, I was simply wiped out.

My day was...

Rough. Full. Full of progress. And heartbreak. And hope. And frustrations. Moments of empowerment. Winning small victories. Full of heartbreak. Sadness. Anger and frustration. I jumped into therapist mode. Switched to Mom mode. Full of compassion. Ending in exhaustion. Mental and physical exhaustion.

I drove home in internal silence. My sweet teenager tried to turn on all of "our tunes" to get me reenergized and singing, but I stayed silent.  Pondering. Thinking. Wondering. Worrying.  When we got home, I went to the bathroom and then sat down on the floor with the sunlight shining in on me and I just sat there.  For an hour. 60 minutes of nothing where my brain was all over the place.

But guess what???

I love my job so much. So, so much. I love going to work every day. I truly do. I love cheering students on, seeing breakthrough, guiding through tough times, being the person that a student can count on. I tell my students that once they are "my kid", they will always be "my kid". I will advocate for them, care for them, push them to be their best, and sit in their brokenness. WITH them.

 But some days it's a lot. Even when I love my job, there are those days that wipe me out. As I got up the next day, I could still feel the leftover tension in my body...but I couldn't wait to see my students...You see, God has me right where He wants me. I believe that with my whole heart. It's crazy to think I changed careers in my 40s but as I look back I can see how God orchestrated each part of my career. Each position, each school corporation, each experience...all leading me to where I am.

You see it was one of those days. One of those days full of the things mentioned above, but also one of those days God showed me that I am just where He designed me to be. In a school I love, co-workers I truly enjoy, new dear friends, a place to fit in, doing something I am so incredibly passionate about. I am so incredibly blessed.  And that my friends is the best kind of "one of those days" you can possibly have.