Turn of Events...

There always seems to be some kind of turn of events...we shall see if this is a good one or not!  In an earlier post last week sometime, I had said that I was going back to the "shot doc" to probably up my medicine and that we had decided that we were at the pain management stage of my treatment and no longer seeking a cure/fix for my neck pain.  I had been filled with peace on that, which could only be God-given peace because up until this appointment I wasn't ready to "give up".  Well, at this appointment the doc and I are chatting and he is looking back through my file over the last 15 months or so.  He told me that he has a hard time giving up on a patient as well and wanted to see if there was something that he missed.  Well.......there was.  He looked back at my earlier treatments and discovered that the "cocktail" he used that I showed great signs of improvement with, were different than the treatments he had given me since January...WHAT?????????  I was speechless and so was he honestly.  He didn't know how/why he had missed that and told me that he would like to try another round of shots but that it was up to me.  I was confused as to why this all happened and chewed on the information all afternoon/evening, along with talking to a few faithful friends and hubby about it.  I decided the next day to email him and pose some questions of why this happened and how many treatments he thought it would take, etc...  I explained my frustrations with this and that the cost of the injections was a big factor for us (insurance doesn't pay and it is very expensive).  He wrote me back within a couple of hours telling me that he would like to do 2 more rounds of shots with the original cocktail of drugs and that he would do both of these procedures for FREE because it was his mistake! Wow!  Will these next shots heal me?  I don't know to be honest.  Why did it all happen this way?  Why doesn't God just heal me?  Again, I don't know.  What was pointed out to me by my friend over at "The Back Door" has been on my mind...God led me to the place where I turned to HIM and gave it over to Him and had complete peace with not being "healed" and looking for a way to manage and live with this pain. Hmmmm...coincidence?  I don't think so.  While I await these shots I continue to realize that my hope is not in these shots...my hope is in HIM who gave me the peace in the first place!  I go for round 1 of 2 shots on June 21 (Tuesday morning).  I do pray that healing comes with these shots, but I know that if it doesn't...I'll be okay and God's peace will continue in me.